Removal of ‘time’ and the ‘other.’ Time for salvation and the other for approval. I was only able to tell that I was trapped and controlled by these two illusory after I was awaken from this illusion. When I was totally immersed in this illusion, I was so scared of other people’s judgement. Scared of other people because I believed that I had to please everybody I meet. And in order to please someone, I must not be genuine me but rather fake me. I had always think things from other people’s stand point and chose what to say and do accordingly. Very dysfunctional indeed.
And my brain is fried due to J’s sleep over last night with endless hours of Melee and I’m calling a night and it’s not even passed 8:30 lol too tired!
Tomorrow I’m going to pick up my glasses from eyewear shop and meeting up with my cousin for lunch. NEMU!